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Name: Cameron
Birthday: 12/15/1983
Gender: Female


Interests: i love jesus, some good music, show going, dancing, all my pictures, road trips, whose line is it anyway, people only knowing me by my calves, hilarious shows on VH1, my friends, and so so so so on.
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Member Since: 4/14/2004

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Monday, January 22, 2007

 

                Alonzo Gardner Smith March 11, 1920-January 15, 2007

 

my grandfather-
i dont know if i will ever know anybody as amazing, loving, devoted, caring, pure, honest, and Godly, as him. whether you knew him as mr. lonnie, mr. smith, the candy man, or Da, it doesn't matter-he was the same incredible man of God through and through. he reached out to each person he came in contact with and had a true heart of servant hood. his smile could light a room, his hugs were sincere and heartfelt, his firm handshake and friendly "hey Bud" made you know he really was happy to see you, and whenever he asked how you were doing-you could tell he truly was concerned. i know each of you could tell me story after story of wonderful memories you shared with my grandfather. if you knew him well you would easily be able to tell the 3 most important things in his life: his church, his family, and his heavenly father and he gave all and everything he had to each of these.
 
to his church-i can't even begin to tell you all of the memories i have with da in this church. i used to come with him to help him clean the church-he would make lemon poppy seed muffins, and coffee for mr. whitwer and i would sing obnoxiously on the stage thinking i was awesome and such a good singer and every time he just looked up at me and smiled and agreed with me. you know you are a good man when you can do that. and you always knew where to find him-he was either standing up in the back with bulletins in his hand greeting every person that came in or he was sitting in the back row with our family. and if you were sitting anywhere near him you could always hear him sing each hymn loud with no shame, sharing his heart through these songs. and i know everybody has watched tons of kids run up to him every Sunday and heard him say those famous words that we heard for years "red or green?" his peppermints were kind of his trademark. we all watched him be a true leader in this church. it just wasn't the same without him standing in the back passing out bulletins, greeting each person that walked in the door, and making everyone smile. he loved this church and everyone knew it.
 
 
to his family-he loved each one of us so much. his 3 children-my mom, my aunt, and my uncle, meant the world to him. and he adored and loved us-his grandchildren-unconditionally. he raised his kids and grandkids the best he knew how and cared for us and always wanted to the best for us until his last breath. even when he was tired, and weak, and in pain-he held on and fought cause he wanted us to be ok and to be taken care of. and when he was in and out or he had his bad days-he always knew who we were and always managed to slip out an "i love you too honey." i cant even begin to tell you the amount of influence he has had on my life and how it has helped me become who i am today. it's the hardest thing in the world to let him go, but we are so lucky we had him for as long as we did.
 
and to His God-i dont really need to explain this one. one look at my grandfather and you could tell who had his heart and who he was devoted to. he was a passionate follower, a faithful child, and an obedient servant.  
 
this is why it's so hard to say goodbye to somebody so wonderful. we all want one more hug, one more kiss, one more smile, one more time to tell him we love him. the past will never be enough but we can rest in the fact knowing that we will get to do all of that not just one more time, but for an eternity when we are reunited with him in heaven. and i cant wait for that day. because the day we have been dreading here on earth for so long is the day our god has been anticipating for so long. the day Da left us and left this world behind and finally went home. and i know that when God finally got him he looked at him and said "well done my good and faithful servant."  
 
 
 
i know that he is gone from us and he finally has peace and rest
and now we can simply cling to the fact that my God has truly gained one of the very best

 


Tuesday, May 16, 2006

so...I finished my college career with a bang..4.0HHHHH SNAP! That is correct. All A's. I am pretty excited. But I am officially through with school forever. What a crazy feeling. In  way it is exciting because now I can do whatever I want and go anywhere-to a certain extent-if I have money that is...but in another way it's really sad and scary. All of my friends are going in different directions-New York, Atlanta, Dallas, Memphis, India, Italy, some staying here, and then there's me. I have NO IDEA where the heck I will be. Possibly Nashville? I don't know. I'm scared of uncertainty and the future. But hopefully something great will open up. If anybody has any ideas/suggestions/tips just let me know. love to all.


Friday, May 12, 2006

so...i possibly have-no i DO have the best friends in the entire world. they are all amazing. but right now i am going to highlight a few special friends:

these crazy kids knew i had been having a bad week so they KIDNAPPED me, blindfolded me, and took me to this guy's house:

where they declared it "I love Cameron Day 2006" and had my favorite ice cream, the coldplay dvd, and some good friends waiting for me. What can I say? I am EXTREMELY blessed. Thank you guys sooo much.

Also, I also had an extremely encouraging and uplifting chat from this young lady:

I am a lucky girl.


Saturday, May 06, 2006

so my life has changed somewhat drastically in the past 4 days. i was heading in one direction and had a lot of things going for me and for my future and in a matter of 4 days 2 major things have been taken away from me. i am now starting completely over. no job, no attachments anywhere, just me. part of that is really exciting and part of that is really scary and a little sad. it's crazy how things work out sometime. you picture your life one way because you are so secure with certain things, then all of a sudden it's gone. it's not necessarily a bad thing..maybe it's just God telling me i want you to pursue your dreams and not settle anywhere and not have any attachments. so what now? where do i start? where do i go? guess ill just have to see what He opens up for me.

highlights of my week: 1. being ty's date for the 2nd year in a row to the soccer banquet

                                  2. seeing alex warren..mi amor

                        edit*  3. drew mellon tackling me into a table and splitting it in half

*this just in: i now have 8..count them EIGHT..engaged friends and 3 married friends..i hate my life..haha


Tuesday, May 02, 2006

Currently Listening
Rockin' the Suburbs
By Ben Folds
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my stomach hurts.

my head hurts.

my heart hurts most. 

i love my friends more than anything.

 



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